Wednesday, April 20, 2011

I'm a SAHM

I'm 3 days in to being a SAHM (stay at home mom). I can see already I have a lot to learn. So far I've worked myself silly cleaning closets, organizing drawers, reviewing our new "budget", planning "learning time" and playing with my 3 year old son (not to mention establishing routine and discipline).

Fortunately I live in a neighborhood with lots of SAHMs. They are giving me tips on transitioning from two incomes to one, entertaining kids for free, eating out inexpensively and grocery shopping on a budget. This is a whole new world for me. I've spent the last 14 years working on my career of which the last 5 I learned to balance work and being a mommy (at least making a decent attempt).

Because I'm a mom I can handle all things...right? It has been challenging the last 3 months. In summary I got laid off, spent the next 3 months aggressively job searching and interviewing, dealing with some medical concerns with my children and coming to the decision to turn down three amazing job offers and transition from career mom to stay at home mom.

In the midst of all this turmoil I can honestly say I find pockets of peace. When I take my daughter to school AND pick her up...I find peace. When my son tells me he loves me for no reason at all and we take a walk in the middle of the day...I find peace. I have to hold tight to those pockets...because life is messy. Between my husband receiving a hanging spider in the mail when he expected bird deflector caulk (long story), telling your son it is not ok to call mommy "naughty" and reminding your daughter that nice girls don't use "potty words" you have to have those "peace pockets".

What I'm already recognizing is that life is not measured by margin and revenue but by presence and sweet hugs.

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